Perfect moments

Ever witnessed or experienced maybe is a better word a moment where you sit back and observer your life?

Its a really strange moment when you feel like u r actually sitting in the background and the environment around you, the people are interacting, going on, continuing and you are in a pause watching yourself, observing yourself actually ..... existing under these circumstances.

It has happened to me a few times and these times I vividly remember.

The strangest thing is I realized first I was having such a moment when I was very young.

I was on summer vacation with my grandparents and at that particular moment I was in the car with my grandfather. The day was really very sunny and warm, and the sea (we were near the sea) was perfect for a swim.

We were going shopping and then swimming. And I was really looking forward to it.

So at that moment, looking out of the car, I witnessed myself being happy and I thought (a cruel thought for a child) that I should hold on to this moment of perfect happiness, to remember in the years to come. I actually promised myself to remember that moment of happiness and all other moments would measure up to that.

Probably found wanting anyway.......I can never reach that sunny place anymore. And it aches........