What a strange week.......

First someone I thought would not leave work.....announced he is leaving. And even though I thought some time ago I would be very very sad.......now it just feels like the end of an era, an era that is already long gone. However...whenever we talk.........I wonder.

Then on Thursday a huge fight at work again, which made me realize that people just cannot stand others smarter and uncompromising than them. It was the first time I realized how much the other 3 in my team envy me...and the ends they are willing to go to to hurt me. And they did...on Thursday I was thinking if quitting...well not really but actually that I couldn't stand the situation anymore.

And then today.....a today. Today I was the one who configured the LLU product in the production systems in the company. After a marathon day of meetings and fights etc, after many months of preparation and after a day before which really sucked, today I actually brought this to life and it felt fuc....g great :-)

Especially after Nik sent me a thank you sms...that really made my night:)

Oh....I'm also sick, I have the flue...again......runny nose and a sore throat......but I fell really great:)

After a long time .... sure I have my moments up and down, especially because intelligence really doesn't let you in peace.....

However I still think I am in crisis.....better yes but still in crisis.

I wonder what will make me get out of it completely. I guess peace and a few good months. Hopefully.

I'm tired of people who always take from you without giving anything back. And the last 6 months have been only that.

Anyway its really late and I can barely keep my eyes open.....after only an episode of Boston Legal when I still have One Tree Hill and Gilmore Girls to watch.....but I'm dead:P

I want to go to the theater and see Hamlet B'. I loved that play when I first saw it a couple of years ago with my mom, we went at least a dozen times to see it. And its on stage again this year, I'm dying to go.

Also want to see The Devil wears Prada.....and so many more things I want to do but it just seems time is never enough. Oh well......I'm too lonely......

I remembered a couple of days ago, because of a chat I had with a friend my trip to Venice.

And I remembered when the vaporeto took the final turn to the port of the city of Venice and I saw the gate of the lions and the Doge's Palace.....the Piazza San Marco....the Basilica.

I remembered the gondolas and the murano factory and walking around the old streets and canals of Venice.

Buying a murano pendant and a murano vase. And my most vivid memory......passing in front of hotel Danielli's and promising myself that one day I would get to stay there.

Well I will......I still have a lot of life in front of me to live....free :-)